I have not been able to stop thinking about our conversation since it ended.
I am afraid if I do not get these feelings under control, the mission will suffer.
And yet, I felt that the only way to do so... was to come see you.
What kind of feelings?
I should not name them. To do so may give them even more power over me.
But I-
I missed you. And I worried that the way things ended, you might keep your distance from now on.
That... is something that I would very much like to avoid.
Player
I can't stay away from you, Subira.
Subira
I would not want you to.
I... like you, (Player). In a way that the Order explicitly forbids. Yet I feel it all the same.
Player
You want me close?
Subira
I say I will not name my feelings, and yet you ask all the same.
Yes. I want you close. I find my thoughts straying to you often. Even when I try to get them under control.
I like you, (Player). And everything I have ever been taught growing up in the Order says I am not allowed to.
Player
I'm getting mixed messages.
Subira
You are right. If I cannot speak plainly, I should not be wasting your time.
I like you, (Player). Despite all the rules clearly telling me that I should not.
Player
I'm confused. Do you like me or nah?
Subira
I say I will not name my feelings, and yet you ask all the same.
Yes, I like you, (Player). In a way that the Order explicitly forbids.
Yet I feel it all the same.
Well. I have said it, and yet speaking it aloud does not change the rules I am beholden to.
No matter how we might feel, it cannot go any further than this. Best we cut it off at the pass.
...
Player
Sooo, no more flirting?
Subira
There is... nothing explicitly forbidden in the rules about... friendly banter. Or receiving gifts, as long as they do not exceed a five hundred gold weekly limit.
As long as we both agree that we are... friends, having friendly conversation. Very friendly conversation.
Player
Is this what you want?
Subira
No. No, it is not.
I suppose we have not done anything expressly forbidden yet. There is... nothing in the rules about... friendly banter.
As long as we both understand what that means.
Player
Sure, 'friends'.
Subira
Good. We understand each other.
Player
Am I allowed to think my friends are hot?
Subira
I- well, I do not have any control over what you think about your friends, (Player).
Now then. I should return to my investigation.
I am glad we spoke. I feel much more focused now that we have cleared the air.
I will see you soon, (Player). I hope the two of us can become... closer.